Shit happens. It can happen to anyone. Maybe it’s happened to you. Maybe it’s happening to you right now. The other day, shit happened to me.
My boss blamed me for something that wasn’t my fault. He not only blamed me, though, he talked down on me and went out of the current situation to bring out things from the past. He wasn’t professional about it. He sounded like the job was a personal favour he did he was doing for me. He talked about how I dressed. Said I was useless. It was strange. No one had ever said anything like that to me. Usually, I’m a star in the department. But this was humbling, especially when I’d spent the entire weekend working overtime for the company. But funny enough, I wasn’t even mad.
I wanted to be angry. Why was I not angry? Please God, make me angry about this bullshit. But I wasn’t angry– not at him or about anything. After the whole thing, I couldn’t stop laughing. I laughed for, like, 10 minutes. What is wrong with me?
Maybe I’d accepted my situation in life— given up, become complacent. Maybe it’s because I need the money and I would take any insult flung at me. Maybe, like Hugh Macleod, I have an evil plan. Or, maybe I just don’t care about stuff like that anymore.
If not caring about anything like that is the case, I must be making progress with fixing the bugs in my head.
I took a break from psychoanalysing myself and started reading The Hard Thing About Hard Things by Ben Horowitz. I like his style and the no-BS approach to business mentoring. This is how CEO’s should talk. We all know running a company isn’t easy so why do you all keep “blowing sunshine” up our butts?
Fun fact: When Mr Horowitz was still a young man trying to figure out life and be an entrepreneur, his daughter was diagnosed with autism, his wife’s heart stopped (she’s okay now), the dotcom bubble burst. That’s a disproportionate load of hard things happening to one person.
In the book, he talks about The Struggle. What’s The Struggle?
“The Struggle is when you wonder why you started the company in the first place.
“The Struggle is when people ask why you don’t quit and you don’t know the answer.
“The Struggle is when your employees think you are lying and you think they may be right.
“The Struggle is when food loses its taste.
“The Struggle is when you don’t believe you should be CEO of your company. The Struggle is when you know that you in over your head and you know that you cannot be replaced. The Struggle is when everybody thinks you are an idiot, but nobody will fire you. The Struggle is where self-doubt becomes self-hatred.
“The Struggle is when you are having a conversation with someone and you can’t hear a word they are saying because all you can hear is the Struggle.
“The Struggle is when you want the pain to stop. The Struggle is unhappiness.
“The Struggle is when you go on vacation to feel better and you feel worse.
“The Struggle is when you are surrounded by people and you are all alone. The Struggle has no mercy.
“The Struggle is the land of broken promises and crushed dreams. The Struggle is a cold sweat. The Struggle is where your gut boils so much that you feel like you are going to spit blood.
“The Struggle is not failure, but it causes failure…The Struggle is where greatness comes from.”
“Life is a struggle,” said Karl Marx. I think I’m in my Struggle right now. Maybe someday I’ll be great.
If shit is currently happening to you, I’m “Just letting you know that you’re not alone… [so] Holla if you feel like you’ve been down the same road.”
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